In life, we aren't always handed what we want. Many go into marriage thinking that they have found the one that they are meant to be with for the rest of their time on Earth. Sadly, this isn't always the case.
Don't get me wrong. I firmly believe that people can get married once and stay with that one person for the rest of their lives, being truly happy. I had counted myself as one of those lucky ones until something happened that caused it to end. I won't explain it here since it is still very painful to think of, let alone talk about. For those of you thinking that it was cheating, it was not. But I will say this, something happened to cause the deep, forever love that I had for that person to break into millions of pieces and get swept away in the ocean of grief I found myself thrown into, and washed away into nothingness.
Why do I share this with you? What could possibly be the point? I share this because I spent some time talking with that very person today: my ex. We got to talk, just him and I, without the input of people around us. I still feel that he is a good guy and deserves to be loved again, just not by me the way that I used to. I can only hope that he feels that way about me. We both agreed we could be friends and I truly hope that we can be as time pulls us in different directions. We both had a great impact on each other's lives, both positively and negatively, and I hope that only the positive stuff remains in our minds as we move on with our lives.
I was watching the movie "Eat, Pray, Love" and there was a line that mentioned something about past loves. The character said that it was still okay to love that person, even though they were no longer a part of your life. That every time you thought of them, to send them love and light, then let go. So that is what I shall do.
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